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I believe you, so I don't want you to say sorry anymore. When you say it you're making a promise, and the promise doesn't make anything change. I know it's for my sake, but I believe you already. To promise with words only relieves you some of the negative energy, and it gambles your promises. Its to put yourself beneath me, to convince me you're ashamed,…

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Protected: A jar of wind

I've been trying to figure out what it is. What it really is. The toxicity. Honestly, I have had so much to deal with today I have not even had time to think about us. But this was true before the fight, and probably part of the reason for it. I hope you're doing okay. I'm trying to come at it emotionlessly, so I can just…

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Protected: Notes

First session of therapy with Dan today. He suggested that after I take notes. So here it is. So far we're fixated on the fight that took place on Halloween, which, while a big deal, doesn't really approach the root of the toxicity between Ash and I. Two nights before we had the same fight about the cats. Where Ash defended me from something I didn't…

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